I really liked this! Great job!

It's good to be back! I've missed you all. I've missed you most of all Ginger and it looked like I was going to be joining you (wasn't too upset about that) but the doctors and God had other plans. So here I still am. (sigh!)
Love to all,
Dave Derby
Ginger's Dad

John-John, that awful day is coming up soon. I know that everyone else looks forward to the day, picnics, fireworks etc... but I just can't. I still remember our plans over that weekend! How I wish we could of had that fishing trip. 6 years now and the pain isn't any less. I love you and miss you so much my little buddy. Nothings ever gonna be the same to me.. until that day I see you again! I love you very much and miss you always.

Dad

John, it's so hard at times knowing that your gone. I believe and understand that you're in a better place but we miss your smiling face and shining wit so much. I think of you every day son. I want you back so much it hurts. You are loved and missed very much by all.

Dad

James it is now 16 months. I am still finding it hard to believe you are not with us anymore. With the holidays fast approaching I become sad that you will not be with us and the beautiful smile will not light up the room. I am making a new poster for you and also making Travis a memory book of you. It is so hard on all of us but that little buy breaks my heart when the tears come. Peggy is going to have eye surgery in Dec. Please be close to her and let the surgery be a success. I remember our last thanksging together, you, mom, and I had a good time driving around eating all those goodies we cooked. You wanted steak and steak you got. Miss the good times my sweet boy. You are always in my heart and you will never be forgotten. I love you James and we will be reunited again. Mom

Can anyone tell me how I can do the memorial page for my son to go to a website. I want to do this but can't figure out how to do it. I miss my James so much and want to honor him this way.
Thank you
Mom so sad

It has been 15 months now that I lost my son James at a young age of 20. It is so hard to believe he is gone. I talk to him every day and I cry. I think the second year is almost harder than the first. James, I went to PV a week ago and took some of you with. I went par-sailing (sp) and let you go up in the air. You loved it in PV and I felt this was a good thing to do as you always wanted to do this. I felt as though I was right there with you. Very nice feeling. Talked to Glenda and they are still dedicating an Golden Eagle for you in the spring. We will plant roses and other flowers there as well, you know where the baby bunnies were. Flowers will go there. Oh I miss you my son. I long for the next time I meet with you and hug you and see that wonderful smile of yours. Holidays are terrible and you are missed but yet never forgotten. Mom

God Help Me! I am going crazy without my best friend and daughter! Liberty Lynn Candelaria died May 24th of this year and she had just turned 23 from unknown causes in her sleep. I have nightmares about finding her in her apartment and am now afraid to sleep since it is an unsafe state. She was the first college graduate of the family, did mission work here and abroad, loved God and was "the perfect child". I want to pick up the phone and tell her all the things that happen each day like old times and am still in disbelief that I can't. We were so close and for that I am grateful. I lost my mother 3 weeks after Liberty and now that the shock and numbness has started to wear I am feeling like every move I make is forced and no longer natural. Can't pay my bills, can't remember where I am driving once I do decide to leave the safety of my home, and so on. I want her back!!! I am so consumed with losing Liberty that I am unable to mourn the lost of my mother. And where are all the people that were here during the funeral? Their lives go on and I am left to drown alone in a hurricane of tears...no life ring in site. I have 3 other children that give me a reason to wake up everyday and somehow manage to keep moving and I am grateful. I just am sooooooooo alone even in a room full of people and I wish I could turn back the clock to a better day but can't!

It is so hard to believe it has been 1 1/2 years sense we lost our sweet 20 year old to Meningitis. She was everything that was good in this world.
She left behind a sister, brother, brother in-law and a beautiful niece.
Life is just so hard now.
Please get your child vaccinated for meningitis. It is reccomended for anyone 11 years and older. It would of saved Sierra's life. Please read more on her web-site.
Blessings, Sierra's mom

James, made it through the first year without you. Planning on going to listen to the elk bugel. You loved that so much. Moved back home to our house and it is better but yet so lonely without you. I thought the second year would be better but I find myself still crying and sometimes it is worse than the first. Travis has such a hard time and Jessica says they all talk about you all the time because they are having such a hard time as well. I thought I would put together a photo album for the kids so they know you are in heaven but yet never forgotten. When I think of things we use to do like listen to the elk I get so sad that I can't share that with you anymore. But I will go and remember the times we went. I truely wish the hurt was gone but I know now it will never be gone from my heart. Always missed, Always loved my son. Mom